Kyle’s Blog

I hate talking on the phone. 
I hate telling the same story twice. 
I don’t like talking about home when I’m away. 
I don’t care about other people’s relations, gossip, news, or how this or that person is doing information. 
I’m incredibly selfish with my own life. 
I’m so obsessed with achieving my goals that I’ve put everything and just about everyone as a second priority. 
I don’t take criticism very well. 
I choose not to call.
I choose not to email back
Again all falling back on me being selfish with my own time and priorities
I’m desperate to figure things out
I get in a state of self loathing if I don’t work out, but it’s hard to motivate myself. Thankfully the gym usually wins
I’m glad I don’t drink as much here
I get pretty miserable when I drink too much
Living a busy life on the road is the only thing that sustains me, I cannot imagine living any other way
I’m horribly anal retentive about the appearance and flow of my room
Buying Outside magazine, looking at cool gear, and getting me inspired about more and more adventure and gear pertaining to said adventures has turned me into a complete classic consumer case.
With no bills over here I’m completely frivolous with my money
I’ve completely disconnected myself from my friends, and they’ve accepted that. My dear friend Ashley is the only one who tries to keep up.
I feel that I’m leading her on and that it’s an unforgivable thing I’m doing
She’s the only person who “gets” me at this point in my life and that’s why I hold on so tight to her, because I have trouble figuring myself out.
If I don’t get an opportunity to go to dive school I have no fucking clue what I want to do with my next 4 years in the Coast Guard.
Sadly it feels like I have no other choice, but to stick it through
I can’t imagine working as a civilian and having some young fuck mouthing off to me… I’d probably punch his teeth in… it’s all about respect.
I feel that I’m losing everything I’ve ever learned at school and it depresses me
I STILL don’t feel that I have the discipline to go back to school and apply myself for a piece of paper that says I’ve been to school for another 4 years. Worthless piece of paper.
I miss my own bed
I miss Americans
I beginning to hate ignorant Seattle based liberals more and more everyday
CNN polls about the war make me even more upset
If we leave where we are now the whole world will fall apart.
Believe me… I’ve seen the locals we’re going to intrust this country back to, it’s pathetic.
I miss my team in Seattle more than just about anything
It seems like life is creating roadblock after roadblock to prevent me from getting back to working with those guys
It’s experiences like what I’m going through right now that makes me damn proud to be an American.
I don’t think that’s cheesy anymore either
What I’d give for rain
What I’d give to fall asleep to the above
I feel that I should probably not post this